My Children

I recently read the book "Lift" by Kelly Corrigan. It is beautiful short book of love letters to her children. The book makes me think of my own children, how they will be grown before I know it and I will also change with them. I do not want to forget what they were like and how my life is with them. I have already forgotten a lot about my daughter when she was a baby. I also wish they would not forget what they were like. Here is a personal attempt that maybe some day my children will read and be reminded about their childhood.

To my five-year-old daughter Abigail: I love that I am the man in your life, who can always save you from your fears. One day I hope I won't embarrass you and that a man will take good care of you. I dread the days of you dating and not knowing where you are. I know I will be a nervous wreck. I love your chipmunk voice and your natural ability to sing and dance. I look forward to the day that we will one day go to Guatemala together. If you one day seek your birth family you will not forget that we are your family too.

To my one-year-old son Nathaniel: I was once scared that I could not handle another child and that you would break Abigail's heart. I am happy to say that I was wrong. I love you and Abigail was meant to have a brother. You are so funny and adorable. It is so funny how much you are already into sports which is very opposite to Julie and I. It makes me so happy to see Julie have a momma's boy. I look forward doing boy things together like going fishing and camping. Your sister enjoys it too. I do look forward to the day that you are potty trained though. I want to go back to Korea with you also. I want to see your reactions.

I hope you both have a family of your own one-day and find passion in your jobs. I want you both to be proud of who you are and find strength in those moments I can't be there to save you. Remember to call us and don't move too far away. We might have to move near you. Please bring us grandchildren to spoil. I want to look into your children's eyes and see you and remember what you were like when you were little. I hope your children sleep better at night.

I love you both with all my heart. I hope I stay in good health for many years together.